I feel like I’m wasting my life. I’m only 16, and I know I have so much ahead of me, but I feel like somewhere along the way, I fucked up. I’m watching all my friends, everyone I look up to, living my dream, and I’m just here. I failed. I’m slowly pushing everyone away, but I genuinely can’t blame anyone but myself. It’s my fault. I don’t speak up when something bothers me and I let it fester into resentment that just grows day by day. I try to speak up, but I feel like when I do I’m being ignored. I want to blame my parents for how they raised me, but I feel like if I’m lucid enough to understand that they can fuck me up, that I should know how to better myself, and I’m simply just not doing it. I don’t know why I set myself up to fail. Why I lie and cheat and steal. I spent too much time dreaming and in that time everyone was actually getting their lives together. I’m gonna grow up and be nothing but a minimum wage worker living paycheck to paycheck. My dreams are just dreams and they’re gonna stay that way, because I couldn’t get better. I wasn’t strong enough to woman up, and achieve anything. I know no one’s gonna save me, that I have to save myself, but for some reason I just can’t. I don’t know why I am the way I am. I want to change. I don’t wanna end up like my parents, barely being able to afford basic things. Having to do odd jobs and sketchy things to make cash for dinner for three kids, and if I’m lucky I get some too. I’m sorry if this is stupid, but I’ve felt this way for a while and I just need to put it somewhere. This rant is all over the place too, sorry if it doesn’t make any sense. I don’t really proof read these kinds of things.
It is heartbreaking to see this post. I am 24 and i have been feeling like this since before your age. I would like to say that it gets better, but it it's not always better. For some times it does get better and then it gets worse again. You will get really high and then fall really low. Over and over. In a year you may not be the person you have always wanted to be, but you will be better and wiser than the year before. Try to stay strong and not hate yourself. You will not change yourself by hating yourself. Stay safe kid!
No worries bro. You'll learn later that you just need to be yourself. There is no good person or he/she is better because he/she can do that and I can't. Just try to be the best version of yourself, and don't live to impress others. Actually, never ever care what others think about you. Deep inside you already know how to do the right thing. Read some books on stoicism, it will help you a lot. It helped me
I'm 23 and I've never felt so lost. Its like I'm working towards nothing.
I'm graduating uni 2 years later than my peers and it has made me feel so useless. Everyone is out there doing stuff, impressive LinkedIn profiles and all I want to do is read a book, be in the library. I think I'm lonely. I have friends but I don't really have a friend. I have so much to say and no one to say it to. I feel so much and express so little.
My aunt died last year and I don't think I've come to terms with that yet. I feel lost. No one is truly listening to me. I want to be heard.
I think we're both lost. No one is coming to help or advise. We have to look into ourself.
sorry for pulling you into this
I felt the same way as you at 16. I'm now 19, which may seem far away, but it's not. You're still a child, still have much to learn and experience. It will get better, and eventually you will forget those bad days. Good is coming. Have hope.