I have a crush on my teacher and I feel so guilty because it's inappropriate and it'll hurt him if he ever finds out. but this crush won't go away, it's been like a month maybe, since I felt it for the first time, and I ignored it thinking it's nothing serious just a fleeting emotion, but turns out it has intensified. and I feel so guilty about it that I can't face him and so I'm not going to his classes but I can't avoid it forever since my exam is coming. idk what to do and I can't definitely tell anyone I know, it will ruin everything and it will just idk... it will make them perceive me a certain way and I hate to think about that. I just wanted to get this off my chest. it's ridiculous really, it just makes no sense but at the same time I feel something and I hate that I feel something because this is bad. urgh idk what to do but I hate this feeling
You're young and your sex drive is getting the best of you. Part of maturing is controlling those urges, knowing when something is not right and one hundred percent, that feeling will be generated for even boys your age if you take the time to pay attention to others.
For real though, we don't need another thirty year old teacher on the news. Treat it the same as you would for feelings for a celebrity... it's bittersweet. Use this time to try to control your urges and i will tell you that if he knew, nothing good could come of it.. emotionally or legally. Sometimes you just gotta ride the emotional roller coaster.
If you are both consenting adults then there's no reason for it to be wrong to be interested in him. Wait until you finish his class for the semester and find out if he's single or not. If he's single, then ask him on a date one day
continuation; I feel like the reason I felt drawn to him is because, he's so cheerful and like explains things so easily that I became interested in a subject I'm so bad at and it just seemed so appealing to me even though that's like the bare minimum maybe, but it's like I feel attracted because of these reasons among others... and it's not like I ever wanna initiate anything but it's just that... I feel attracted to him even though it is wrong and I don't know how to make it stop. oh I'm not a minor btw but he's like in his 30s maybe so the age gap makes it even more wrong... I just don't know how I got myself into this shit but I don't know how to stop... I find myself looking at his photos in his socials and honestly it kinda disgusts me that I'm doing it but I can't stop... idk what to do how to make it stop.
since you're not a minor, you should find out if he's single or not and maybe ask him out?