I find it hard to watch or absorb any sort of fictional media because I get legitimately jealous that those things can't happen in real life, sometimes to the point where I genlt angry or depressed. It feels like some kind of cruel prank by God to make our lives so mundane, but to still give us the ability to imagine something infinitely better. I know it sounds pathetic, but I just can't stop myself from thinking like this for some reason.
It's understandable. Things could be much much different, but they are not. You may want to read about real mysteries in our life that are within our grasp. Things life studying the universe or deep sea can be rewarding in the discoveries and complexities that it brings to ones mind.
I feel like this sometimes with romantic movies or books, I don't likr them because I get jealous