I was watching porn today and some gay male on male one came up (I never saw watch gay porn) and I felt this weird bloom in my chest before tears started pouring. I had never reacted so weirdly to porn before but I guess seeing something that I know I could never be or do made something in me snap.
Sexuality is fake lol. You're just scared because you understood what it was like to be gay for a second. Everyone is pansexual; we all just lie about it so we don't stir up too much shit. Get off to whatever you want to. I think for most people this involves being straight, maybe bi. You're not obligated to come out. Your mind isn't full of hidden desires you have to dig up. Whether they're queer or straight, don't believe anyone who tells you their gender or orientation is some magical, immutable, pure thing they were born with. As long as you're not directly hurting anyone, you're fine. Like whatever you want.
I guess that would be a cerebral and visceral reaction to an unfavorable stimulation.
when the gay porn is so moving i genuinely shed a tear