I'm annoyed how my feelings keep switching up. I'm frustrated and upset at you but I sorta miss you???? Like I know there's so many things wrong that'll just make me go fucking insane yet an idiotic part of me wants you to just. Anyways, I'm being selfish here I know that, I really know that, but I hate the fact that my mind or whatever is making me feel this is keeping me glued to this hope or unrealistic expectation. I wasn't like this, I fucking wasn't. Perhaps I got desperate, yeah that could be the answer. I just need to focus on what's important. Usually I am alright, but when he crosses my line of vision, whether it is in real life or online I just. Begin to think stupidly. I can smack my mind to despising it but at the end of the day it'll resurface. Whatever it'll pass I just need time
There was something here that your missing and its not about them but about you. Some kind of absence maybe a self love or yearning for another. Maybe companion ship its your obligation to figure out your missing piece they are just there to help guide you to it